///Robot Riley/// - Callbacks III

25th March 2010

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Callbacks III

Hi, nerds. I’m still thinking: It’s such a dumb way to feel, but I am sometimes intimidated (maybe not the right word…it’s more of an adoration-induced shyness) of certain improvisers. We’ve all been there, right?

Everyone’s had a moment when they’ve wanted to be cool around someone they find cool. I felt (and still sometimes still feel) like I have to “prove” my “worth” through performance before being able to walk up to folks and have a chat. I know this isn’t the case. I’m just a nut. But, you know.

There was an extra layer to the good vibes from my audition. On the surface, there was the rush of actually doing well. I had fun! But even before getting a callback, I was just content with getting laughs out of some of my favorite performers. It was calming and extremely unsettling at the same time. And I know that it’s completely pointless, but in that moment, I felt like I had carved out a little nook. Some social breathing room. I feel like it wouldn’t be such a big deal to go up and talk to whoever. Not that it would have been in the first place.

This entry was written on my iPod in little chunks during 90 second breaks in my work day. If it reads like a dumb, unfocused ramble, it’s because it is. I also apologize if it reads like I’m bragging about how I got a callback and I made comedians laugh. Too much horn tooting. I’m just a lil’ proud. I feel like I’d be an all around better person if I just believed in myself more. I think part of that is recognizing when I do cool stuff. Okay, that’s sharing a lot. Sharing time is over for now.

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